The C word ..

After a brief comment on my previous blogpost on my nan being ill and in hospital its gotten much worse ..

On Wednesday afternoon I found out my nan has Myeloma! This is a form of blood cancer! Heartbroken & devasted are words which best describe how I felt at the time. Luckily enough now I can say although the hurt remains I also feel positive. My nan is a fighter!!

Myeloma has no cure at present (this has to change) but there are treatments that can manage the Myeloma. My nan started her chemo treatment on Thursday and also has to take steroids (around 35 pills per day). I dont think it has sunk it yet for anyone but especially nan, shes calm and seems nonchalant about the whole situation and this worries me, my nan is used to being strong for everyone else and not showing her emotions, this has to change!

Myeloma is known to effect peoples kindey function (guess we all have attention seeking kidneys right) and nan was initially addmitted into hospital with kidney failure, we now know this is because of the Myeloma, once nans kidneys have stabalised she can come home and contine her treatment as an outpatient. (cue the welcome home party)

I felt lost and afraid so god only knows what my nan must be feeling, but after meeting with my nans key worker (the lady who organises all of nans care and treatment) i feel much more positive and informed. (I guess knowledge is power after all) After doing some research of my own I found that Myeloma is usually but not exclusivly found in older people and that around 4,000 new cases are diagnosed each year.

As cliched as it sounds life is to short and maybe this is the wake up call we needed to grab life with both hands and just have a ball. I want to help nan do as many fun things as she wants and just crank it up a gear and have a blast.

I am of course devastated to find out that there is no cure and straight away have thought of a few fundraising ideas to raise money for more research into this horrible disease & with Myeloma awareness month in March what better time to start so watch this space.


My weight loss & me (alot less of me than 18months ago i might add)

Quick apology for the break in posts .. I have a very poorly nanny in hospital & im finding it hard to juggle everything and fit things in. Never the less im back and thought I would do a post about my weight loss journey so here goes:

I have always been a chunky monkey & as a result ive found that I have always yo-yod with dieting. However when I got pregnant with my little boy I took the whole 'eating for two' thing way over board and in actual fact probably ended up eating for about 5 with minimal excersise.

I vowed to loose weight for good after giving birth and so after my 8 week maternity check up i joined bootcamp with 2 of my friends alongside weight watchers :) The 2 combined helped me battle the pounds as well as sculp my body shape into something I am actually beginning to like *shock horror never thought I would have said such a thing* 18 months down the line i am almost 6 stone lighter than when I started aswell as much fitter & healthier.

I find the whole Weight watchers plan has helped change the way i think about food and excersise and dare I say it, i dont feel like im on a diet at all i feel like my whole lifestyle has changed *i know how cheesy do i sound right* I love the safety net of weekly points aswell as my daily ones which mean i can have a splurge on the weekend with my family and as i love cooking i just love finding and making new low points recipes :)

Of course i have my bad days/weeks who doesnt but ultimatly i have found a passion for excersise i never knew exsisted and if you asked any of my PE teachers from school would probably laugh at me now being all excersise mad, and ive found that to loose weight its all about mindset and lifestyle adaptations and changes. Ban the word diet!!

So here goes im about to reveal my before and after pic eeeekkk :)